-Private Threads- [pluviosa]

[helborn]

For threads that don't go anywhere else.

Please include rough day/time in the header of the comment just for timeline's sake.

Comments

[helborn]

He glances behind his back and... oh. For one, that's a lot of robes. For another, gods he's cute. "... You don't have to stare down at the tile. You're still gorgeous, schatzi. ... I'd prefer to be disinfected, though I don't want you to waste your wine on - look, I can't get drunk."

He knows that it won't be that way with his wounds, but still. "I... I can take the pain. I promise you, I'll be okay. I've had so much worse than some stinging."

[airplaneskyward]

Blushing even harder, now. "I, um. Thank you, 包贝." He's weedy for a cultivator, but he is still a cultivator, and therefore has stupidly flawless skin, and at least some wiry muscle. "You're... I wish I was seeing you with your shirt off in better circumstances so I could appreciate it properly." All the injuries sort of detract from the ability to ogle boyfriend. The skinny nerd-ness is not at all offputting, Casper is cute.

"It's not a waste of my wine. I only have it in my everyday qiankun pouches because it's useful for practical things, not because I need... emergency drinking supply."

"I don't... I don't want to hurt you, 心爱. I know you say you can take it but... I don't want you to hurt at all, not just... bear it." The way he talks about being hurt is just...

[helborn]

"I would rather get hurt than get infected which will do gods only know what. Who knows what kind of plants or germs are around here? So please... it's okay. If it's you, it's okay. I just don't want to hurt you later down the line." Part of his mind notes that he's begging to be hurt and files that away as 'things I don't want to think about right now'.

He bows his head and closes his eyes. He just wants to not upset Shang Beida. He wants his boyfriend to be happy, not upset.

[airplaneskyward]

Oh, he doesn't like that defeated-looking bowed head. He steps closer and kisses Casper on the temple. "I don't want you infected either. And I'm worried about you, not me." Like he's said, he's pretty durable. As long as nothing affects Casper's mind, he's not worried about what might happen to himself. "Give me a second."

He turns back to his robes and roots through qiankun pouches until he turns up the right bottle. He pulls out a length of bandage, for good measure, to use as a cloth to clean with. Turns back. Deep breath. "Ready, 心爱?"

[helborn]

"Okay." He leans into the kiss and then pulls back when the other does. It feels like forever before Beida speaks again, but he nods. "Yeah. Go for it." He tenses slightly as he prepares for the pain to touch him. It's better this way.

It'd hurt so much if he were to hurt the other by getting sick or... mind controlled or whatever the plants here could do.

[airplaneskyward]

Shang Beida pours a generous amount of alcohol onto the folded wad of cloth--there's probably a better way to do this, but he is still not Mu Qingfang, so this is what he's got--grits his teeth, and wipes firmly at one of the larger scratches on Casper's bicep, where there's mud and bits of bark ground into the flesh. He tries to steel himself against Casper's reaction, but he does not like this! Pulling the Ling Hua dart out of Mobei-Jun was easier, his king was unconscious and also he wasn't in love with him!

[helborn]

Casper lets out a long sigh - it hurts, but it's not unbearable. His arm shakes a little bit in response to the pain, and he stays still as the other wipes at the skin. "I'm fine. It's okay. Keep going."

He's not sure if Shang Beida needs the reassurance, but it probably can't hurt?

[airplaneskyward]

Shang Beida kind of wishes they had cleaned these out before everything sat in them for hours, but for once he has the tact to bite his tongue on that and not just make Casper feel worse to no purpose. “Okay, 宝贝. Just— tell me if you need to take a break, okay?” He goes over the arm with each section of cloth until it’s too filthy to keep going, and eventually gets down to clean skin and… scratches with bits embedded in them. “I, um. I think I’m going to need like, a needle or a knife or something to pick some of this out? There’s like… stuff… embedded under the skin.” That they really don’t want to leave there. “Um. Are you okay?”

[helborn]

"... Okay." He's not like... a fan of sharp objects but he recognizes their use. Especially in this situation... "Don't worry about opening up a wound - it'll heal fast once I let it. And I trust you."

Anyone else approaching him with this? No. Absolutely not. But Shang Beida? He trusts the older man. As much as he doesn't want to do this he knows he has to. "I don't want to end up like... that thing." The bog body. Why did he think of it again? It's not the dead body that bothers him, it's the living things on it.

[airplaneskyward]

Shang Beida presses a fleeting kiss to a clear patch of Casper’s shoulder, then returns to rooting through his robes. “Let me see what I’ve got…”

He turns up a dagger, a kitchen knife, and eventually a sewing kit (for emergency repairs!) with needles that he feels better about. He takes the biggest one and returns to Casper. Deep breaths. “Okay. Found a needle. I… you ready, baobei?”

[helborn]

"... Yeah." He doesn't want to, but he knows it's important. He keeps his eyes tightly shut and tenses up. He doesn't want this, he really isn't comfortable with needles, Still, he has no real choice in the matter.

He takes a deep breath and tries to not hold it. "... Go ahead."

[airplaneskyward]

“Tell me if you need me to stop,” Shang Beida demands. It’s patently obvious how incredibly uncomfortable with this Casper is, every line of his body tense, but… they both don’t want bits of plant inside him, and that isn’t going to go away by wishing. He braces a careful hand on his boyfriend’s arm, grits his teeth, and starts picking out fragments of bark, flinching a little when the wounds he’s cleaning start bleeding afresh. Casper wasn’t kidding about his blood being lighter than ordinary human blood. He tries to focus on that and on his task rather than on which one of them might be trembling.

[helborn]

It hurts, but it's not unbearable. The quick sharp pokes to his arm... it's like when someone messes up drawing blood. But he's stronger than he used to be. ... He can feel himself bleeding, even though his eyes are closed. His instinct is to heal, but not yet. Not yet...

"I'm okay. Keep going." The wound are at least for the most part fairly shallow - there's no deep gashes on his skin. Picking it out is a little less of a chore than it would be otherwise. Still, he doesn't like it - but there's lots of things that he doesn't like that have to be done.

[airplaneskyward]

“You’re doing great, baobei.” Shang Beida might be trying to reassure himself as much as Casper. He doesn’t actually particularly like causing pain in general—not to real people, anyway, fiction doesn’t count—and he likes it even less when it’s someone he cares about this much. He works his way down Casper’s arm to his wrist, then gently turns his hand over to work on his battered palm. And he’s a sap, so first he presses a kiss to the center of Casper’s pale hand.

[helborn]

He keeps his palm steady, rolling his eyes slightly at Shang Beida. "Don't get yourself infected..." He's still not cleaned off, but he's more worried about the other than himself. "I'm okay. I promise, schatzi. You're doing fine. I trust you." There's some cuts on his hands, but most of the issue is dirt under his nails which is... somewhat harder to pick out without blood.

[airplaneskyward]

“Hm. I don’t think I have like, a nail brush… I don’t want to stick a needle under your fingernails that’s not happening. Um. Maybe a hair stick…” He pats vaguely at his head before he finds the simple silver hair crown holding up his bun and pulls the stick out, leaving his hair to fall loose around his shoulders. He’s a millennial, so like, he doesn’t actually feel wildly improper like this, but also, he has lived in fantasy ancient China for decades and he kinda does. Having his hair down is almost more improper feeling than having his robes off, because like, group baths are a thing. But it’s Casper, it’s fine. He tosses the crown over at his robes and examines the stick. “Yeah, I think that’s a reasonable level of pointy but not sharp.” He looks up at Casper, hair straggling into his face. “I’m gonna rinse this cloth out first, I think? And then we can clean under your nails. Um, unless you want to do it, you can reach yourself, I…” He’s still holding Casper’s hand in one of his, blushing a little. “However you want.”

[helborn]

He looks up and - oh. He... looks really cute with his hair down, too. "Ah -" What was the question? Oh. Oh, right.

"Okay. And I... I mean if you think you can get it all, I... don't mind being taken care of if it's you." It's a weird feeling, but... it's warm. Is this what feeling wanted is like? He's not sure and his body still feels weird from various other reasons, so it's hard to tell.

[airplaneskyward]

Shang Beida feels... he's not even sure. Something in his chest. He's useful, he's wanted, he's making something better for someone, and it's someone he cares about, and it was sort of satisfying nursing Mobei-Jun back to health but his king was always furious about being vulnerable, and Casper trusts him and he's not even angry when what Shang Beida does hurts... Some of those larger pieces of bark would have gotten him knocked across the room with how he'd had to dig, if this was his king.

He doesn't know what to do with himself, so he kisses Casper's palm again and goes to wash out the cloth like he said he would, then comes back with it and uses the alcohol to clean off the hair stick.

He takes Casper's hand again, cupping it, and brings the hair stick into position by his thumbnail. He looks up through his lashes at Casper. "Ready, 心爱?"

[helborn]

He waits for the other patiently, glancing over his arm and... okay, that does look a lot better. He's glad they're doing this. He's exhausted, so he's not really ready... but he nods. "Go for it."

For better or worse his nails are short. Easier to get into the flesh, but also easier for bad things to get to the flesh quickly. ... They're also a little ragged, cut unevenly and in some places a little too close to the fingertip. There's also some pointy bits that look like they've been either chewed or worried at. "Sorry. I uh... hard to take care of your nails on the road."

[airplaneskyward]

“Hardly time to care about one’s manicure,” Shang Beida says drily. He starts cleaning under Casper’s nails, gentle and careful. “Do you mind if I trim the ragged bits? It’ll be with a knife, but I have lots of practice because fantasy ancient China doesn’t have nail clippers.”

[helborn]

"Pretty much." He didn't really get a chance to pack a camping kit either, so it's not been the most pleasant of road trips even outside of... everything else. "I don't mind, no. Your hands are steady and I trust you." He doesn't flinch even if he wants to, just looks... faintly embarrassed.

"I... uh. From time to time I've bitten my nails. Probably why they're in such bad shape..."

[airplaneskyward]

"I just bite my cuticles, but they heal fast because I'm a cultivator, so my hands don't look nearly as bad at they did when I was mortal. My fingers were always all scabby my first life. Just a sec."

Shang Beida goes back to his robes and grabs the dagger, gives it a considering look, and shrugs. "I think this might be slightly demonic, but not in a way that really does anything. Pretty sure my king gave it to me and told me to stab the next person who tried to push me off a balcony instead of just screaming for him. Should be fine to use, though, it doesn't feel like, malign, just like... demon-made. He probably wouldn't give me something that would be bad for me to accidentally cut myself on. Anyway, it's sharp enough."

[helborn]

He shrugs. The knife doesn't scare him. "Sounds like your king's pretty dismissive of you. But I don't really care where it's from. ... I know you won't hurt me." Not on purpose, at least.

"The nerves and all... I end up chewing on nails. I know it's gross. ... I'm kind of gross." Just... in general. He's still a teenage guy.

[airplaneskyward]

Shang Beida comes back over and starts carefully trimming Casper’s nails smooth and short and even.

“I mean, people in his palace do try to kill me kind of a lot, I’m sure he gets tired of saving me? It’s fine. I’ve got a seal to summon him with when I need him and everything, and not just anyone gets one of those.” He pauses. “Actually, would you mind if I made something for you that I could like, track? Just in case something… it would be more efficient than wandering around shouting your and Bob’s names like I did to find you today? I mean, if you’d rather not be trackable, that’s fine. I don’t know if I could make something you could use to summon me since I don’t think you can channel qi into things, but…” he trails off, looking uncertain. “I… I don’t want to lose you.”

[helborn]

"You shouldn't be in an environment like that." Him? He doesn't think twice about it. Shang Beida? Absolutely not.

He goes quiet when the other asks his question, letting him ramble a little bit until he comes to a natural stopping point. "I don't want to lose you either, schatzi. ... I don't mind you tracking me. Better you than the police or something - I've had enough of escaping out of cop cars and..."

Not the point. "... I don't mind. What kind of thing were you thinking?"