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Casper LeBlanc Jr. ([personal profile] helborn) wrote2024-03-07 01:34 pm

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[personal profile] airplaneskyward 2024-04-24 03:12 pm (UTC)(link)
“You’re not untrustworthy scum, you’re a hero. You protect people.” He feels terrible about making Casper comfort him. “I’m sorry, baobei, I don’t know what— why I’m— being like this.” He nuzzles into the younger man’s neck a little, the human touch incredibly comforting. The fingers in his hair are amazing and he never wants Casper to stop, he’s melting a little bit. “I know you wouldn’t hurt me.”
Edited 2024-04-24 15:58 (UTC)
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[personal profile] airplaneskyward 2024-04-25 02:59 pm (UTC)(link)
“I’ve never been anybody’s hero before.” He hugs Casper closer for a moment. “…love you, baobei. Of course I’d never blame you for… for anything really. I just, I don’t know why I… it’s not like I usually have some kind of fucking fit when I think someone is mad at me or is going to hurt me, I’d never get anything done.”
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[personal profile] airplaneskyward 2024-04-25 06:33 pm (UTC)(link)
The tension is steadily ebbing out of Shang Beida's body and he relaxes into the hair petting. "Ridiculous of me to be traumatized. Nothing that bad has happened to me."

Casper is so earnest and sweet and... just, fucking perfect. How the fuck did he manage to luck into this. "I trust you. I... I don't know why you want to... put up with my bullshit, but... I know you're-- I can-- rely on you."
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[personal profile] airplaneskyward 2024-04-25 10:59 pm (UTC)(link)
"Well, yeah, but it's not like-- child abuse is different from just, cultivators are violent and demons are violent? I'm sure my king backhands all of his servants into walls, I'm just more annoying and more consistently personally interacting with him! And I'm an adult cultivator, it's not like he did like, real damage!"

Oh... Casper's lips press against his head and Shang Beida melts into his chest. Tenderness is really not something he ever though he'd have the chance to experience.

"I'm-- thank you. For trusting me. I'm not... a very trustworthy person, I know that, Cucumber-bro once said I reminded him of a used car salesman, but I just... I'd give you the world if I could. If I could make one on purpose instead of by incompetent accident I'd make a perfect one for you." Being held continues to feel just, unrealistically amazing. Casper's legs are bony and his chest is cool but Shang Beida is still the warmest and most comfortable he's ever been.
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[personal profile] airplaneskyward 2024-04-26 03:32 pm (UTC)(link)
"I'm already... I'm happier than I ever thought I'd be. And more loved. I can't believe you love me, but I know you're not lying, even though I'm just this, and you're so amazing, and..." He presses his face into Casper's chest. "I'm so lucky."

Shang Beida is going to be completely undone if Casper keeps touching him and being nice. "Um. I... uh. I..." Does he like literally anything about himself? His writing is bad, his personality is bad, his body is low-end as cultivators go, and so are his abilities. "I... like that I make you happy? Does that count?"
Edited 2024-04-26 16:24 (UTC)
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[personal profile] airplaneskyward 2024-04-27 09:58 pm (UTC)(link)
Go and make it difficult, why don’t you. “Um. I… like that I can fly on a sword? I like my sword. It’s a spiritual sword so it’s like a little bit alive and it chose me so that’s sort of like liking something about me.” He’s calmed down enough now to realize that they’re both still half naked, and his thumb is now rubbing back and forth on Casper’s back, because… skin. Touch starved Airplane. “What do you like about yourself, then?” Turnabout is fair play, and Casper’s self esteem is about on par with his.
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[personal profile] airplaneskyward 2024-04-28 02:50 am (UTC)(link)
Shang Beida tilts his head up to kiss Casper’s jaw. “I still say you’re a hero. And that you saved me. You’re good at helping people. And you’re a good person for wanting to.” Not like him, who’s only valued his own skin for decades.
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[personal profile] airplaneskyward 2024-04-28 03:09 am (UTC)(link)
He hugs back, trying to be comforting. “You gave me the chance to not be Shang Qinghua, so I guess I’ll… find out who Shang Beida is now. I don’t like Shang Qinghua but… maybe I don’t know Shang Beida well enough to tell yet? Does that make sense? Sorry, that was all, weird and… I don’t know if that made sense at all.”
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[personal profile] airplaneskyward 2024-04-29 12:44 am (UTC)(link)
“You make me feel like I can be anything.” Shang Beida kisses whatever part of Casper’s chest is nearest his face and sighs. “I’m just… I’m so glad about… you. I don’t know how to be around anyone else, but… you’re easy to be with.”
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[personal profile] airplaneskyward 2024-05-01 02:39 am (UTC)(link)
"I like your normal nerdy weird self." Shang Beida leans back to smile at Casper. "Suits my nerdy weird self. I've always been such a NEET, otaku, hikikomori, I've never really been... liked for being a nerd before. Even Cucumber-bro was a sort of... higher tier. Also, I'm pretty sure Cucumber-bro was rich, and rich people can just be like, charmingly eccentric, rather than my whole scraping poverty deal that was just sort of pathetic." Lots of instant noodles.
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[personal profile] airplaneskyward 2024-05-01 02:57 am (UTC)(link)
"...I'm glad you're not failed Nazi Captain America?" He's really not sure how to respond to that sentiment, but he's trying! "I'm not sure that's lucky, though? I mean, like, I would assume the majority of people are not failed Nazi Captain America?" Help how does he make boyfriend feel better. "There was probably like, less... pressure? No weight of the world on your shoulders, just the weight of... corpses? Sorry, no, please pretend I didn't say that, that was a terrible sentence. Um. The expectations were like, normal person things, rather than superhuman things? Which was like? Comparatively comfortable? Probably? Like, when I was trying to get chosen as Head Disciple I would get so fucking homesick for when all I had to worry about was staying up all night pounding energy drinks and writing, even though I was objectively miserable when I was doing that? Um. Please tell me to shut up I'm just saying things."
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[personal profile] airplaneskyward 2024-05-01 03:14 am (UTC)(link)
Shang Beida hugs Casper fiercely. "I'm sorry, baobei. You should never be abandoned or forgotten or friendless or grateful for even negative attention or... you're amazing. I... I know I'm not much, but... you have me as long as I can possibly manage. If I suddenly wake up back on Cang Qiong I'll go cry at Cucumber-bro until he makes his husband use Xin Mo to open a portal so I can get back to you." He'd rather be with Casper than back in PIDW, anyway. And if he ended up in Casper's original world, then fine, he can go bully everyone there into not being shitty to his amazing boyfriend.
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[personal profile] airplaneskyward 2024-05-03 10:35 pm (UTC)(link)
“Fuck— shit— baobei, Casper, I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to upset you—“ Shang Beida drops to his knees on the floor next to Casper, hands fluttering around him helplessly—he doesn’t know whether he should touch him, since apparently he fucked up at hugging him—

“I’m sorry, Casper, what did I do, how do I— you deserve to be happy I— do you need me to go away am I just making it worse I don’t know how to, what to—“ He kind of feels like bursting into tears himself now, because he made his boyfriend cry.

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