"Well, not your parents', no, they suck. But you like Bob. And he's... important." Casper's soul is in him! And he's basically his little brother! Obviously his opinion matters!
"I was... the System was... specific. About what Shang Qinghua needed to do and be. Follow the plot of the book or punishment. Sometimes there were... it didn't stop me, when I almost killed my king with a rock. That would have... it would have changed things. Maybe not everything, though, maybe Linguang-Jun or someone would just have taken his role instead. But I couldn't make myself do it anyway." He doesn't like killing anyone, much less his--what he thought was his ideal man. Bitterly, he continues, "Cucumber-bro unlocked fucking OOC mode after like a month and got to do whatever he wanted. Well, he still had to shove Binghe into the Abyss, but he got to be nice to him before that, instead of treating him like the original goods did." Which apparently just gave Binghe an angry and confused boner, but anyway. "But there's--it was all my fault and my doing anyway, wasn't it? Since I wrote the fucking book. I'm the one who decided all those things should happen."
"I'm sorry I... that I'm making you deal with me... being like this." Pathetic and needy.
He blushes and hides his face in Casper's shoulder. "I'm not beautiful."
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Date: 2024-06-07 02:26 am (UTC)From:"I was... the System was... specific. About what Shang Qinghua needed to do and be. Follow the plot of the book or punishment. Sometimes there were... it didn't stop me, when I almost killed my king with a rock. That would have... it would have changed things. Maybe not everything, though, maybe Linguang-Jun or someone would just have taken his role instead. But I couldn't make myself do it anyway." He doesn't like killing anyone, much less his--what he thought was his ideal man. Bitterly, he continues, "Cucumber-bro unlocked fucking OOC mode after like a month and got to do whatever he wanted. Well, he still had to shove Binghe into the Abyss, but he got to be nice to him before that, instead of treating him like the original goods did." Which apparently just gave Binghe an angry and confused boner, but anyway. "But there's--it was all my fault and my doing anyway, wasn't it? Since I wrote the fucking book. I'm the one who decided all those things should happen."
"I'm sorry I... that I'm making you deal with me... being like this." Pathetic and needy.
He blushes and hides his face in Casper's shoulder. "I'm not beautiful."