"You like me. And you're amazing but there's only one of you. Even counting Bob, I don't think Bob actually likes me. I really don't think anyone else does." Like, what, Wet Justice is going to decide they're besties now? As if. He's not likable, Casper is just... he doesn't know, a fluke. They have enough in common that he cheated somehow and he's too selfish to stop doing it. (And anyway, Casper would be sad, and he doesn't want that probably even more than he doesn't want himself to be sad.)
"If I was loyal I wouldn't be a traitor to my sect and like, entire species." Not that he wanted to be Shang Qinghua and do Shang Qinghua things, but still, he did. He could've like, let the System kill him instead. A righteous person would have, would have rather died than live as Shang Qinghua.
"That's not..." He doesn't have a good argument. "Anyone who wasn't the actual worst would want to help you." But also his boyfriend sounds all emotional talking about him and now he feels bad trying to argue about it and he... feels some kind of way about how much Casper cares about him and... he doesn't have words about it. He darts up to kiss Casper, quick and soft, then buries his face back in his neck. "I... I'm glad I could help you, 心爱." He's so, so glad. Even if he doesn't feel like he deserves this.
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Date: 2024-06-06 12:09 am (UTC)From:"If I was loyal I wouldn't be a traitor to my sect and like, entire species." Not that he wanted to be Shang Qinghua and do Shang Qinghua things, but still, he did. He could've like, let the System kill him instead. A righteous person would have, would have rather died than live as Shang Qinghua.
"That's not..." He doesn't have a good argument. "Anyone who wasn't the actual worst would want to help you." But also his boyfriend sounds all emotional talking about him and now he feels bad trying to argue about it and he... feels some kind of way about how much Casper cares about him and... he doesn't have words about it. He darts up to kiss Casper, quick and soft, then buries his face back in his neck. "I... I'm glad I could help you, 心爱." He's so, so glad. Even if he doesn't feel like he deserves this.