“Fuck— shit— baobei, Casper, I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to upset you—“ Shang Beida drops to his knees on the floor next to Casper, hands fluttering around him helplessly—he doesn’t know whether he should touch him, since apparently he fucked up at hugging him—

“I’m sorry, Casper, what did I do, how do I— you deserve to be happy I— do you need me to go away am I just making it worse I don’t know how to, what to—“ He kind of feels like bursting into tears himself now, because he made his boyfriend cry.