He knows... some of those words, but still. "Yeah, no. I get it. I was never... I mean the funeral industry brings in a lot of money but there's a lot of expenses, too. And we were independent which is even more expensive - there's a lot of secretly franchised funeral homes out there and -" Nope, gotta stop. He can explain the intricacies of funeral home economics some other time.

"... We didn't even have cable TV. Not that we couldn't afford it, but Dad just didn't really see a need for it." All the news was on the basic channels anyway, so why would they need it? He was pretty busy anyway... "But we were... I mean I was -" Was he happy? He's not sure.

He pauses and tries to collect his thoughts. "... I mean, I guess... lucky is a good word for it. I... could have been my brother." His expression darkens a little bit and he looks down, away from his boyfriend's gaze.