Casper is begging and wow that feels even worse! Cool! Thanks for having some kind of fucking episode and upsetting your boyfriend, Airplane!
He desperately doesn’t want Casper to feel unwanted, so he forces himself to stop holding his arms tense at his sides—and as soon as he wraps them around Casper he’s crushing the younger man against him, holding on too tight, and he can’t help it. His breathing is ragged and his face stays in the other’s shoulder.
Casper is here and cares about him and he’s allowed to touch him and he likes him somehow and— that feels the most like a lie of anything. “I’m a traitor. People died because of my traitor crimes. I betrayed my sect and my martial siblings. Repeatedly and continuously. If Zhangmen-shixiong wasn’t stopping them at least one of them would have killed me by now. Probably Liu-shidi. And I would deserve it.” Casper needs to understand what he is.
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Date: 2024-04-23 06:36 pm (UTC)From:He desperately doesn’t want Casper to feel unwanted, so he forces himself to stop holding his arms tense at his sides—and as soon as he wraps them around Casper he’s crushing the younger man against him, holding on too tight, and he can’t help it. His breathing is ragged and his face stays in the other’s shoulder.
Casper is here and cares about him and he’s allowed to touch him and he likes him somehow and— that feels the most like a lie of anything. “I’m a traitor. People died because of my traitor crimes. I betrayed my sect and my martial siblings. Repeatedly and continuously. If Zhangmen-shixiong wasn’t stopping them at least one of them would have killed me by now. Probably Liu-shidi. And I would deserve it.” Casper needs to understand what he is.