"I only care that you're a mess because you're unhappy, baobei. You're... I don't want some hypothetical less broken perfect person. You... you understand me, you're nice to me, you're so..." He's still unable to really put into words how incredible Casper is, how astonishingly lucky he is to have met him.
The idea has definitely crossed the mind of the sellout porn author, yes, it would be hard for him to have avoided the thought, but... "We-- we don't have to do anything that... I don't want to be the one traumatizing you further, 心爱. If I could-- go kill the one who hurt you like-- but I can't, and I'm not a therapist, I don't know how to fix anything." He's not useful for this, for emotions. Well, he's not useful for much of anything, but especially not this. He's fairly completely useless socially and always has been. He's honestly completely unworried about Casper hurting him, only concerned about Casper being scared and upset. He gets hurt all the time, he'll live.
"Fate is an asshole and I'll fight it too? You don't-- you've never deserved to be hurt. I can't and I won't believe that any of it was ever your fault. The world is just... cruel and hard and... things happen and... sometimes we can't escape them." Can he escape his fate, really? He still half expects his king to get Luo Binghe to tear him a way here with Xin Mo to reclaim his spy, if only to have the privilege of his death himself.
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Date: 2024-03-30 11:44 pm (UTC)From:The idea has definitely crossed the mind of the sellout porn author, yes, it would be hard for him to have avoided the thought, but... "We-- we don't have to do anything that... I don't want to be the one traumatizing you further, 心爱. If I could-- go kill the one who hurt you like-- but I can't, and I'm not a therapist, I don't know how to fix anything." He's not useful for this, for emotions. Well, he's not useful for much of anything, but especially not this. He's fairly completely useless socially and always has been. He's honestly completely unworried about Casper hurting him, only concerned about Casper being scared and upset. He gets hurt all the time, he'll live.
"Fate is an asshole and I'll fight it too? You don't-- you've never deserved to be hurt. I can't and I won't believe that any of it was ever your fault. The world is just... cruel and hard and... things happen and... sometimes we can't escape them." Can he escape his fate, really? He still half expects his king to get Luo Binghe to tear him a way here with Xin Mo to reclaim his spy, if only to have the privilege of his death himself.